The Uncertainties After Oxford Said "Yes"

"Jangan sampai kebingungan ini bikin lo lupa seneng ya Fon." 

And that's exactly what happens. It was not all over the moon phase. 

With 2 courses proposed to me, the whole process has become a new "burden". I was anxious, what if I chose the wrong one? 

I prayed istikhara every day but still, I am so afraid of what will come. I pity myself for that. It makes me distracted by the actual reality, "I AM GOING TO OXFORD THIS YEAR"

but the uncertainties will always be there, for you to make progress there must be a choice made and a choice NOT made, and the choices you never make will always leave uncertainties. 

Therefore it makes it inevitable, it is simply part of life.